DECONSTRUCTION

Deconstruction...unbeknownst to myself at the time of building Deconstruction was the exploration of my gender. I came to notice during my daily photographic process of seeing myself that the images I was taking had transitioned from being whole body and face portraits to images taken only of parts of myself. Seeing only parts made me curious what I wasn’t wanting to see or attempting to see within myself. I decided I’d build a full body image in the form of a map on my studio (see below) to see what I could see. I then abstracted from these images and built a life-size mobile made out of transparencies of each of the photographs to install in nature to seek a deeper understanding of what I was processing within myself at the time. Upon reflecting as I made this work I began to understand that I wasn’t a woman...indeed I am a non-binary human and this work reflected to me the deconstruction of my womanhood and redefined my gender in the spacious light-filled land of being non-binary. As you can see in the video above compared to the map on the wall below...the rigidity and fracturing of my womanhood juxtaposed with the fluidity and multidimensionality of my non-binary self.